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A Reflection on 2016 and a Look Forward into 2017

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Recently I haven’t been traveling, but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to still keep this blog up! So while I am not traveling I want to start a new series of posts entitled: Anxious Traveler at Home. This will be focusing more on the daily life of living with anxiety as opposed to travel with anxiety. But do not fret! Just because I’m grounded for the moment doesn’t mean I won’t be back up in the air soon!...

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  • Even though I'm naturally a night owl, I love the mornings. When I wake up and it's quiet and I watch the sun rising up over the horizon, I feel like anything is possible. And then the day starts and the world overwhelms me. I think about everything I need to do, everything I have yet to accomplish, I think about my relationships and worry I'm not doing enough. I worry I'm not doing enough in every aspect of my life. I'm not exercising enough, I'm not eating healthy enough, I'm not calling my family enough, I'm not spending enough time with my friends, I don't read enough, I don't write enough, I don't meditate enough, I don't, I don't, I don't. Enough, enough, enough. I'd like to say, and then I take a breath and remember I'm human, but honestly, it isn't that easy. Yes, I do that, but I don't always believe myself. I have to say it to myself over and over and over again. I have to convince myself that I'm human, that it's okay to be flawed, and then I pretend to believe it, even when deep down inside I don't, because I want to be enough and do enough. But if I keep telling myself that it's okay to fall short, that as long as I try my best and do my best it's okay, then eventually, very slowly, I start to believe it. Today, I don't believe it so much, but yesterday I did, and maybe tomorrow I will, but even if you don't believe it yourself, even if you are filled with self doubt, never stop giving yourself the love and care you deserve. You are enough. I am enough. That doesn't mean stop trying, it means trying your hardest and then telling yourself that even if your hardest falls short of your expectations that it's okay because you're human.
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#nature #tbt #loveyourselffirst #selfcare .
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  • Trying to work on creating expressions in the faces I draw. When I used to draw everything felt somewhat lifeless and at the time I was fine with that, I think because I felt pretty lifeless, I spent years suppressing my emotions, refusing to feel. It didn't matter if the feeling was positive or negative, I didn't want to feel either. But over the past 5 years I've been working on not containing myself, on being okay with feeling, even though sometimes it can be overwhelming. And since I recently started trying to draw again, I figured I'd try and put some of those new emotions I was feeling down on paper, not just with words (which has always been my go-to), but with images.
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  • I've always been a little bit odd. I remember doing this as a kid. Tipping the kiddie swing, balancing on the edge and just thinking. I liked that ledge, it felt controlled chaos. I was always trying to find odd places where I could think, where I could just be. Places that felt different and scary but that felt like mine. ...if that makes sense.
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  • Me and my partner at one of my best friends wedding. I love both is these human beings so much. One of the many things I love about my partner though is how great he is with my friends. I love that he loves them as much as I do, that he cares about their wellbeing and happiness. Though he still has to meet a few who live in different parts of the country 😭😭 that's a whole different story though. Point is, being with someone who not only loves you but loves your friends is the best! Happy Valentine's Day everyone!!#loveofmylife .
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  • In love with my @cocokind sticks these days. This year I've been trying really hard to get rid of anything toxic in my life. Whether that's letting go of old relationships, sugary processed food or make up/beauty products. It's only been a month and a half and trying to find new clean ways of living hasn't always been the easiest and there's been a lot of trial and error (def learned the hard way NOT to use baking soda or Castile soap to wash my hair), but I can honestly say that I am starting to feel a difference now that I've started to find the right stuff! And these sticks are def some of my favs. The turmeric stick has been helping me SO much with my stress filled break outs. The matcha stitch has been healing my overly dry skin (thanks winter πŸ˜‘), and the maca Bert has become my new "lipstick" and blush! πŸ’•
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  • My nature boy πŸ’š
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  • My anxiety has been calmer lately. I've had moments of anxiety, but I e been able to keep myself from falling into panic attacks. Part of what I've learned from using @headspace meditation is that I can't run from anxiety. I can't avoid it or get rid of it, but I can change my relationship to it. Instead of letting my anxiety scare me, instead of thinking of my anxiety as a negative thing, I simply observe it. I breathe. I put a cold pack on my neck or eyes. I go upside down. I don't give in, I just watch and observe and then, as quickly as it came, it passes and I continue on with whatever I was doing. This is a big turning point for me, and while I know there will more likely than not be moments in my life where I still get horrible anxiety and panic attacks, it's a nice feeling knowing that I'm not completely helpless. That I can work on my anxiety, even on my own.
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  • Every morning I wake up and the world I live in is more racist, more sexist more filled with hate that it was the previous day. I always knew the world was filled with these things before, I was not naive to this fact, but I know also that I tried my best not to think about it too much, and there in lies my mistake, our mistake (I believe). We turned away for too long and we had the carpet ripped out from under us. We thought we were on a road to a better future because a black man had won the presidency and we thought a woman would be next and look at all these barriers we were breaking down, when really, all of it was a dream, a falsehood and we were awoken to a nightmare where we could not look away any longer. I am ashamed of myself for looking away for so long, for only thinking of my own problems (to be a women, to be Hispanic) and not the problems of others, at least not enough that I tried to do anything about it. I'm sorry. I know those are only words, but I am. I won't look away anymore. #RESIST One more thing though. I will not apologize for being a dreamer, or for having hope. Because each day I wake up, also, to the news of people coming together, of those fighting for freedom louder and stronger than before. I dream, I hope we all come together now and fight as one. This cant just be women's march movement, or a black lives matter movement, or a no ban no wall movement, they have to all come together and be single movement. United we stand, divided we fall. .
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