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A Reflection on 2016 and a Look Forward into 2017

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Recently I haven’t been traveling, but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to still keep this blog up! So while I am not traveling I want to start a new series of posts entitled: Anxious Traveler at Home. This will be focusing more on the daily life of living with anxiety as opposed to travel with anxiety. But do not fret! Just because I’m grounded for the moment doesn’t mean I won’t be back up in the air soon!...

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  • My heart and soul. This past weekend has been rough. My partner lost someone very dear to him, someone who I had only just started to know, but who I had already grown incredibly fond of. Loss is...unfair. Always. When we lose people we love it is never okay. It breaks our hearts open and it's like a part of us dies with them. I've been trying to encourage my partner to tell me stories about that person, to remember and share those beautiful memories. I believe it's important to remember those we've lost, to talk about them often. Death is a part of life, but the people we love never truly die if we keep them in our hearts. It's not the same, but it's something. This is a lesson that my mom taught me when I was a little girl and my grandpas both passed away just a few months apart, and something she reminded me of when my best friend died. Death is terrifying because it is unknown. And it hurts more than anything else in this world when we lose the people we love. But it's important not to let those losses harden us. We must always remember that it is okay to be soft and that the world still holds love and beauty in it. We spent almost all day yesterday in nature, letting it soothe his broken heart, our broken hearts. At moments we forgot and laughed like it was an other day. And then we'd remember and we cried. Today is another day. It still hurts. It'll hurt for a while, probably forever, but it's another day we're still here and I'm grateful for that and for everything else. .
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#dontlettheworldmakeyouhard #besoft #loss #death #rip #pain #nature #onedayatatime #mentalhealthawareness #breakthestigma #selflove #breathe #motivation #inspiration #psychology #recovery #anxiety #depression #GAD #foodisfuel #iamwellandgood #mycreativebiz #whereiwork #girlboss #dametraveler  #iamwellandgood #pnw
  • As a coffee lover, it has always saddened me that coffee triggers my anxiety. I've tried my best to switch to tea, but have never felt quite as satisfied and happy as when I drank coffee, that is until recently when I started making my own Matcha Lattes at home!! Now, while matcha naturally contains caffeine, the energy boost received from Matcha is largely due to its unique combination of other nutrients and because of the effects of L-Theanine, Matcha drinkers experience NONE of the usual side-effects of stimulants such as nervousness and hypertension. This makes it so that you also don’t experience increased heart rate or high blood pressure, making Matcha pretty much the perfect substitute for coffee (imo). To make it add 1 teaspoon of @domatcha, 1 scoop of @vitalproteins (optional), a cup of (or a little more) of hot water, a teaspoon of @fourthandheart ghee, a spoonful of raw honey and a splash of organic, grass fed milk.
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  • You guys! I am so excited about this food intolerance test by @pinnertestusa! I have had so many stomach issues starting in my late teens and throughout my twenties. I spent years getting sick over and over again. I remember at one point just praying I could make it through an entire week without throwing up. It was horrible. Slowly I started changing my diet. I was a vegan for a few years, then a vegetarian, then I ate a mostly macrobiotic diet. I tried so many things. It took years for me to figure out how to listen to my body, to figure out what made it sick and what didn’t. But even after almost ten years of trial and error, I still get sick. Part of it is anxiety (I know that), but I also know that I have food intolerances (because we ALL do!), I just just don’t know what those intolerances are. But NOW I’m finally going to find out! I’m so excited and hope that the results will help me to figure out how to best take care of my body and MIND! Because in case you’re late to the game, your gut and your mind are like besties. They communicate about EVERYTHING! .
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#pinnertestusa #healthiswealth #health #whole30 #nutrition #healthspo #guthealth #onedayatatime #mentalhealthawareness #breakthestigma #selflove #breathe #motivation #inspiration #psychology #recovery #anxiety #depression #GAD #foodisfuel #iamwellandgood #mycreativebiz #whereiwork #girlboss #dametraveler
  • Sometime during 2015 I went off medication for my anxiety I'd been taking a combination of klonopin & Zoloft, but had reached a point where I thought I didn't need either. & I didn't. I went off with some mild withdrawals, but all in all I was fine. & I was fine for months afterward. But then slowly, things in my life started to change. I moved away from home (again) & therefor stopped going to therapy (I didn't want to find another therapist), my s.o and I started traveling more (which was amazing, but anxiety triggering), we started renovating our home (my place of comfort vanished & turned into a cold construction zone), & little by little I felt my anxiety come back. At first I didn't think much of it. I took a klonopin when it was too much for me to handle, or more honestly, when I just didn't feel like dealing with my anxiety, & at first it was just here and there, & then one day it was EVERY DAY. & then my tolerance started to build until even that didn't help & I upped my dose... it took me a little while to realize I was running away from my anxiety instead of facing it. I was angry with myself, enraged, & in a fit I decided I'd had enough, that I was stronger than this & I stopped taking the klonopin cold turkey. I still feel disappointed in myself for being so naive, for letting my ego & pride take over so intensely. That week of going cold turkey was one of the scariest in my life when it's come to my mental health. I don't even know how to describe the lack on control I felt during that period of time. Thankfully I have amazing friends & family who helped me see the light. I started to wean myself off instead of going cold turkey. But my anxiety was still there. & my fucking ego & pride popped up AGAIN! I didn't want to use ANY medication. Going off klonopin had been traumatizing & I never wanted to feel that way because of medication again. It took me a lot of time & work, & trial & error to come to my senses. To realize that taking medication wasn't weakness, it was strength. It takes A LOT OF STRENGTH to ask for HELP. asking for help is imo one of the hardest things in the world, but oh man, once you do, it's a whole new world. ✨click link in bio
  • Confidence is not something that comes easily to me. But I've been learning more and more lately that faking confidence is kind of the same thing. With meeting new people, with job interviews, in social situations I've gotten pretty good and pretending I'm confident, and 99% that pretend confidence comes ends up turning into real (or at least perceived) confidence. It's awesome! HOWEVER, confidence with the people close to me and confidence in myself is something that I still haven't figured out. I can't fake it till I make it with people who know me well, and I definitely don't know how to pretend I'm confident to myself. And it effects my relationships and the way I go about life on a daily basis. Recently I've noticed it triggering my depression. Because with a lack of self confidence comes a slew of negative self talk. I'm not good enough. I'm not deserving. I'm not, I'm not, I'm not. And that is not only NOT okay and unhealthy, but it's not fucking true! Right now I am laying in bed. I woke up and my negative self talk started up immediately and it took me a few minutes to catch myself. Then I started thinking of ways that I could combat this... the answer, I think, is positive self talk and gratitude. I'm going to try starting everyday not only with meditation but by writing down three things that I like about myself and three things I'm grateful for. It may be cheesy and in the back of my mind I'll still feel like it's self indulgent BUT that's my negative self talk coming in, so I will keep doing it until those voices fuck off. And then I'll keep doing it. How do you battle negative self talk? Leave comments! I'd honestly love to hear!💜
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#confidence #confidencequotes #negativeselftalk #positiveselftalk #bepresent #bemindful #practicelove #practicegratitude #loveyourselffirst #anxiety #dametraveler #gad #depression #welltravelled #mycreativebiz #whereiwork #girlboss #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness
  • It's hard to be patient when you have big dreams and so badly want it. One of my best friends @megtanna said this to me yesterday when I was venting to her about how much I wanted to be a writer, about how much I just wanted to tell fantastical and magical stories for a living, but how difficult it is some days to motivate myself to keep writing when I feel so far away from my dream. I've always been an impatient person, even as a child. I keep trying to remind myself that it's a process, and that I have to just keep going, keep trying my hardest. I write at least 6 days a week, if not every single day. And yet it still doesn't feel like enough. How do all of you deal with being impatient? Or how do you practice patience? I could definitely use some tips! Lol.
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  • I haven't worked out since Christmas Eve 😭😭😭 I've been sick since then and just getting out of bed has been a struggle. But today that ENDS!! I'm still a little sick (this mother fucking cough won't die!), but I feel well enough to work out. Exercising for me has just as much to do with my physical health as it does my mental health. When I sweat and push my body, that's what truly makes me feel comfortable in my own skin. It isn't make-up, or clothes, it's taking care of myself, and part of taking care of myself is working out. Exercise gives me confidence, it teaches me that I can push myself harder than I think and still be okay, he'll, it teaches me that I'm stronger than I think I am, and it's a lesson that I take with me into other parts of my life.
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#exercise #ifeelprettiestwhenisweat  #wanderlust #travel #travelawesome #traveldeeper #anxiety #adventureisoutthere #dametraveler #passionpassport #darlingescapes #gad #depression #welltravelled #mycreativebiz #whereiwork #girlboss #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #athomeintheworld #mytinyatlas #visualsoflife #mywherever #myhotlist #girlslovetravel #wearetravelgirls
  • Okie dokie, I finally have a new blog post up!!! Woot woot! Basically it's a short reflection on 2016 and a look forward into 2017. In it I discuss how I plan to live more consciously in the new year, from getting rid of shampoo to replacing toxic makeup and using more reusable items over disposable ones.
While I'm not traveling I still really want to create posts for my blog, so I've created a new section under lifestyle called Anxious Traveler at Home, which will discuss more about the daily life of living with an anxiety and panic disorder. TO READ THE FULL BLOG POST CLICK THE LINK IN MY BIO. 😘
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 #wanderlust #travel #traveldeeper #anxiety #dametraveler #passionpassport #darlingescapes #gad #depression #welltravelled #mycreativebiz #whereiwork #girlboss #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #athomeintheworld #mytinyatlas #visualsoflife #mywherever #liveclean #reusable #plasticfree2017 #bepresent #headspace
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